I’m still pissed

and it’s making me anxious. I can’t stop obsessing. I can’t get over the hurt. I’m pissed off…still. even though I thought I thoroughly examined the incident. I thoroughly examined my feelings. my actions. my intentions.   and yet I am so fucking pissed. She claims to empower women but she will stab them the […]

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Accept it

good things are happening to you even if shit is flying everywhere else in the world and you’re pretty sure the world is going to end sooner rather than later   GOOD THINGS ARE HAPPENING. and there’s nothing wrong with you. you deserve progress. success. a team of people behind you who WANT to work […]

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daddy was on the phone

telling me that I could make it through the semester that I would survive the withdrawal that I could handle 12, 8, 6 more weeks of torture that if I finished the semester I would have an easier time finding a job an easier time transferring colleges he saw klonopin withdrawal in residency and, because […]

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to be

lynched by your own humanity gutted by the hands of human kindness and split open for the world to devour your innards is the only thing you think you will not be able to survive but when you do come to and the light shines directly into your eyes and you’re crying back tears not […]

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When I was in the 5th grade

the only friend I had was my pet senegal parrot, Kayah. I would come home from school and she would be eager to see me. I went everywhere with her. She was my confidant and companion. Most importantly, she made me feel loved and appreciated. during a time in my life when I was regularly […]

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weird

when you crave misery and chaos and even crisis because at least is preoccupies your brain when you bored, sometimes you look forward to the other shoe dropping or maybe its the faintest sign of depression. maybe it’s just complacency even if youre doing everything right maybe its the anxiety of something new pleasent, forgiving, […]

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