when your experiences

and burdens and sorrows and trials and tribulations come in handy there’s this strange moment of reconciliation. It wasn’t all for nought. One day your pain will be useful to you, they say. And maybe it’s that I can help others when the pain is overwhelming. It’s as if I am actually grateful for the […]

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support vs. rescuing

today I was tempted to rescue someone. But I didn’t. I want to save them from their misery and suffering but I could already foresee what would happen to me, emotionally, if I got involved. I would be anxious and tired and overwhelmed by someone else’s problems…and knowing this person, I wouldn’t be able to […]

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Reasons I don’t want kids

1. there’s a chance an offspring like mine would turn out like my sociopathic, violent, abusive Brother….much like how my mom debated aborting my Baby Brother when she found out he was a boy. 2. It’s only taken 24 years, but I am finally able to take care of myself and not have to parent […]

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